36 weeks! Plus a list of things a First-Time-Mom worries about :/

WAHHHHHH, literally a month out! Counting down the days. At least we have the necessities all set up, but we are as ready (physically) as we can be! I'm also as exhausted and out of breath as I've ever been at baseline. LOL. This morning it took me what felt like 27 different movements just to get out of bed. The What to Expect when You're Expecting Book says that the baby should be around 6 pounds right now, but our baby is definitely ABOVE average, I'm thinking closer to like 7 right now. We will see at our appointment tomorrow. Another incident that happened this morning was me overthinking. I started spiraling about my worries about being a first time mom. So let's go through these points together:

• Having to take care of a human being 24/7

• Feeding schedule, baby eating too much or too little

• Ensuring that the baby is breathing at all times

• Not dropping the baby (tell me why this is a huge fear of mine - I know I'm crazy)

• Not exposing baby to illness/sick contacts

• Waking up in the middle of the night to take care of baby (I'm a heavy sleeper)

• Not rolling over baby if he is in the bed

• Knowing reasons to call the pediatrician

• Teaching the baby simple life things

• Teaching the baby complicated life things

• Teaching baby how to navigate the world

• Teaching baby about stranger danger

• TEACHING BABY ABOUT HUMOR BUT NOT GOING OVERBOARD AND MAKING THEM WIERD

• Being a good mom

• Being a fun mom

• Being a mom that baby can trust and tell anything to

• Having enough baby clothes

• Using the right laundry detergent

• Having enough diapers/having too many diapers

• Overstimulating baby

• Doing enough tummy time

• AM I SUPPORTING THE NECK ENOUGH?!

• Swaddle or no swaddle?

• Bringing baby to the right pediatrician

• Making sure nothing around is a choking hazard

• Will baby even know my voice? Did I talk to him enough while he was inside?

• What if he doesn't even like me?

Okay, I think you get the gist. There are so many worries as a first time mom. I just want him to feel loved, accepted, and supported (and be funny, duh). Writing them out felt a little silly, but definitely helped me get it off my chest. There are a ton of others, but it's a start. I was talking to a fellow about to be first-time-mom friend this morning and felt that this was the best way to get these feelings off my chest. But you know, we got this. There are tons before us, and will be tons after us. The reassurance knowing that we aren't alone and there are literally tons of resources around to help is the best feeling in the world. If you're about to be a first time mom and have any fears, are a mom with advice, or just a reader with something to say about motherhood, or even anyone who wants to comment period (any readers out there?) , drop some love/advice/words! I'd love to hear from you! Sistah Ceej loves you! See ya next week! \m/ CHEEEEEHOOOO!