30 week update

Holy shiiiiiiiiiiiii. I have 10 weeks to go before I hit my due date. That is some scary stuff. I am not old enough for this. I am totally a Type B personality. All our registry gifts are neatly packed in the boxes they were shipped in, the stroller and car seat are not set up, we have ONE box of diapers on the way and no wipes. Hellllooooooo third trimester procrastination. I even said I was gonna do weekly updates starting at week 28. WE ARE TWO WEEKS AHEAD OF THAT.

I was talking to a family friend who said, "take it day by day Ceej, you have two months to do a little everyday". She's right, no need to overwhelm myself by putting pressure to do everything at one time. I think honestly, the hardest part about right now is that all my symptoms are taking a bad turn. The first trimester symptoms I had were pretty miserable, but they are more distinguished in the third. The second trimester was cruise. I had my appetite back, I was walking frequently and felt good for the most part. But ever since we started week 28, my heartburn has been HEART BURNIN. When I tell you that I feel like there is a damn frog in my throat and/or lava regurgitating through my upper GI tract at all times, I ABSOLUTELY mean it. I have to sit up at a 90 degree angle at all times with perfect posture and no slouching to feel a semblance of normalcy. Of course, my couch is usually comfortable and leans back pretty deep at baseline, so yes, I DO choose to sit on a metal folding chair with a single pillow to support my back instead, when there is a beautiful, comfy cozy, fully available cough right next to me. This baby better come out so hairy because this heartburn bettah be for something.

On top of the acidity that is my daily life now, my carpal tunnel has also increased in severity. What's crazy is that I thought it was pretty bad early on. LOL, little did I know that was the easy part. I had numb/tingly hands and shooting pains since maybe like week 18? That feels like a lifetime ago when this started because it got so bad at night that I had already bought wrist braces to ensure no bending at night. I have been wearing them to bed ever since. The other day though, it got so bad I had to put a brace on before bed, it's been hard to even hold a mug properly... Dear Lord, please let this subside postpartum. And I also have been thinking about buying a bidet because on top of feeling large and having a semi sore lower back, the carpal tunnel makes is extremely difficult to bend at the wrist without pain to do my daily activities AKA wipe my own ass. So, tell me why more moms aren't talking about this? Oh right, they have children to take care of! Good thing I'm sharing about it LMAO.

I didn't mean for this to become a venting session. It did just happen to veer towards that initially, but I promise I'm not here to just complain. This is an update blog. As far as baby size goes, all the charts are saying size of a cabbage! I'm thinking Napa cabbage? Because week 29 was actually the size of a wintergreen squash, so seems to be about right. At my last appointment, my OB mentioned that the baby will be around twice or three times the size once I do deliver... I already feel huge. How is that even possible? The miracle of growing a baby. Sometimes I think, how the HELL am I growing a baby.... from scratch... with no like real critical thinking involved or manual physical labor putting it together piece by piece? The human body is INSANE.

Cravings! I need alllllll the sweet treats! I'm usually heavy on savory, more of a popcorn treat girly and was never really like ooh I want a doughnut or ice cream or chocolate. It's funny how your wants change so drastically. I think too, that because my heartburn seems to be aggravated by fried, spicy, or acidic foods that I usually eat, I am biasing more towards things I want that won't cause such issues. THOUGH, when my husband asks if I'm hungry, I always tell him I don't know because my heartburn is constant and I'm unsure if it means I'm hungry, I ate too much, or I'm good sooooo there's that. I also feel like sometimes I am absolutely STARVING when I wake up and at other times, I'm eating like a rabbit. Again, the human body, absolutely insane.

Luckily, I've been able to continue walking. Staying physically active meaning walking at least 2 miles every day, besides when my body really needs the break. Sometimes I'll throw in a light lifting sesh but I'm usually pretty consistent about the stretching. I've been incorporating cat/cows, pelvic tilts, thread the needles, and child's pose in these daily stretches and I feel like they are definitely keeping my legs agile and loose. I worry a little when I think about pushing positions and making sure I don't cramp up during the pushing phase of labor and needing a stretch. Hopefully, this daily stuff is prepping me well for that. OMG, the leg cramps are crazy too! I actually have a particular way to stretch my legs in the morning now to avoid those nasty calf cramps. Instead of pointing toes to the wall, I point heels and the cramps are avoided. Voila, so happy that I figured that one out.

Wanna know something funny? I tried that light trick on the belly. So I've seen a ton of videos where they shine a phone flashlight at a certain part of the belly and the baby kicks there since at this gestation (I think they said earliest at 28 weeks) they can see light. So I tried it... three separate times, in three different places. Nada. And I am feeling regular movement, but I'm thinking, maybe it's because I have an anterior placenta? Placenta is thick and baby can't see the light through it, or my baby is just ignoring me LOL . That's fine, there will be no avoiding me when you're in the real world kid.

I do have some worries. I worry about being a good Mom. A stable one who thinks through her decisions and makes the right ones for her kid. Like even down to naming him. What if he hates his name? What if he ends up wanting to change it? Or big things like what if I don't discipline him enough and he becomes a rebel or if I discipline him too much and he becomes a rebel? What if he doesn't like me? There are so many worries and thoughts that run through my mind daily and I think you can see why the procrastination of the big stuff happens. Because I'm thinking about all the minute things that I can't even control LOL. Oh, and no, if you were wondering, I don't have a birth plan. Previously being a Labor and Delivery nurse, I know too much can go wrong. I'm not having a baby for the experience of childbirth, I would love nothing more than a healthy happy baby and that's all I ask from the team.

Well, that's the 30 week update. We'll talk again more at week 31 (probably... hopefully). LOL. Sistah Ceej loves you. Hit me up if you have any questions, wanna talk or whatevs. You know the drill. PS if anyone wants to send me shave ice, feel free (it's a MAYJAH preg craving of mine) LMAO. Love you, mean it. SHOOOOOOTZ